sometimes i wonder if i've made a mistake.
something i wish never happened.
maybe turn back time to alter what's been done.
but i'm impulsive, arrogant, rude.... and i can't help myself.
really, it maybe hard for you to accept that sometimes i actually do try to hold myself back.
you think i actually want to be all rude and agressive all the time?
i'm not out to get myself a stroke, you know...
but that's besides the point.
what's done is done.

and life is not about looking past my shoulder to regret the things i've done.
it's about facing the consequences head-on.

so i know you don't read my blog. but i really wish i never told you anything over the last two days. i fear the consequences could be catastrophic, and not just for me.

in this instance, it's me taking on a train head-on.

so bid good bye to me. this could just finish me off.

"if i could just take it all away..... take it all away......"